Mistakes.

Kinda wish I could disappear sometimes and not from you or you or you, but from you and you. Feeling like I was being selfish towards people I truly care about. Waking up last night trying to calm myself down knowing it may never be the same. I never used you and I wish you would understand that, but I shouldn't of been ignorant to the fact that you were there for me and helped me more than I asked you too. And you, I get a sickening feeling I just lost you in the mist of it all. The poking and laughing just seem to fade away. 

As I sit here typing this out trying to hold back these tears again, I can't help but honestly tell myself that I deserve this.