Urges.

Not again. Having this feeling of drifting away into my old attention seeking habits. I'm trying to be good... But late at night when I'm alone... It's all I can think about. This is me recognizing it before it happens. I wanna say I'll be strong enough to look past it but I just don't know. I'm a repeat offender. Doesn't matter what kinda status you're in, you will eventually speak to me how I want to be spoken too. That's where it starts.