maybe.

i painted something and it actually came out half decent. how exciting for me.

i don't want to work at a factory.

it says:

messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer.

i think it's pretty close.

it's in everything you do.

i'm tired of this life.
tomorrow, i will get so high and i will paintpaintpaint.
or something along the lines.

i'm pissing my last check on drugs. sounds like a good idea.

i'm loving life right now.

yippy.

i finally reclaimed my blog after 3 years.