Again.

gotta get back on that lifestyle again, only way i'll feel somewhat decent.

Nothing.

never forget there is consequences to your actions.

...

you're gonna be okay.

Grrrr.

just remembered i lent a girl in my 3d class my damien rice cd and never got it back. STILL SALTY D:

Obvious.

Took a good hard look... I guess I wouldn't have sex with myself either.

Again.

feeling lonely, left out. it's been slowly building. looking for any validation that'll make this feeling go away. not pointing fingers cause i'm sure it's me. certain things about myself that i just don't feel good about anymore. just craving attention.

Patch.

today has been a little rough for me. i don't want to blatantly label myself, but i am all the labels my mind can think of. at least for today.

Difficult.

as much as i tell myself i'm doing the right thing... i feel like there could be more i could do but in reality, i'm sure there isn't. i think the most difficult thing is walking out to the kitchen knowing there's an impending day coming and all i can do is pet him and hear him purr like he always does. even when he's a complete mess, he still purrs. that breaks my heart the most. tonight i'll bathe him. he hates it but he always looks like a new man afterwards... even if it's just for a day. he's the last bit i have from my childhood. i'm sorry my friend, i hope you understand.

Still here.

Just lonely.