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they make me feel like not attending school at all. they know i don't have credit history, they know i've never filed for taxes, but yet they don't want to help me with school. what am i suppose to do? tell banks that i want a loan based on 3000 dollars thats been saved in a l.a. bank account. yeah i'm sure they'd jump on that idea. i, myself have to take out a loan of 3000 dollars. all i need is a friggin co-sign. you have to have some faith in me. i know its 5000 dollars, i know if i don't pay it it'll fall on you. all i can give you is my word and a montly payment. you just need to sign the dotted line.i looked for a way to change my application, my fasfa. i just don't know. i'm at a block where i need to involve someone other than myself. i don't want to wait another 5 weeks for my fasfa to change. i don't want to resend things that i've done in august. i don't have that time, you should have said something to me before hand. but i guess that would include involvement in what i'm doing with school. and god help me if that'll happen. i'm tired of doing all this myself. i really am. so much, that i'm afraid its not worth it anymore. i want this to happen so much, i'm making the deadlines and paying the fees. if i waited around for you, none of this would be done by now.i'm so close but yet it still feels unreachable. you have no idea how this hangs over my head and bothers me. i just want the support of a parent. the 'you can do it.' the 'have you sent your housing application money in?' the pat on the back. they brag about me getting admitted and how i'm attending this spring, but they won't show me any support. sometimes you can't do something without parents, and this is one of those times. you promised me friday. a day to go over all this. the fate of my education lies in this co-sign. if i don't get it i'll have to wait another semester, i'll have to do this all again. and honestly, i don't think i would do it again. school is not worth my sanity.